Sunday, December 31, 2023

2023 in Retrospect

I'm still trying to come to terms that 2023 is about to end. The new year ends and beginning never mattered to me the most in the past as well but, this year has helped me to introspect in a deeper way. The more I look at 2023, the more I look at every event, the more I feel it's happening for me, rather than to me. Traveling, meeting people, learning more about myself, grieving for the loss and being grateful for everything has been the journey of 2023.

January: I've decided to stay at home for long time. Given the style of my work, I didn't know how things worked but, I wished to stay at home no matter what and I did. I seemed to move my base location from Jaipur to Hyderabad but, the travel hasn't stopped. In the hustle of traveling, I managed to apply for IHIED. I travelled to Bangalore University for couple of times, caught up with Shubha, Rakesh, Rajneesh and many other friends whom I was bonding with. Swathi was getting engaged. I managed to attend her engagement and fly to Bangalore over night. Dyu and Sneha were getting married. Attended their marriage. Got a chance to spend time with Azhar, Shankar in Mumbai. At the end of the month, I attended Hyderabad Literary fest with Harry, Jaya, Syam, Anjali, Anthony, Karan, Kalpana, Harini and many other friends. Met a speaker at the fest,  who hails from Sathupalli, a place where I studied 1st grade. Attended a ghazal workshop hosted by a young poet. Had a conversation with authors, Harry, Jerry Pinto, Gita Ramaswamy. All through out, was catching up with friends especially Jaya, Bala, Syam, Veda, Sai. 

February: Traveled to Chennai for Dad's health check up. I hardly do any of the travel trips with family these years. Visited beach and museum with mom and Dad. Returned home, stayed for a bit and traveled to Yadgir and Gulbarga. I felt that would be my last trips to those lovely campuses for that year. I was alone and enjoyed my stay at Gulbarga and Yadgir. Got a chance to catch up with all the teachers and students. I informed my boss about leaving the organisation to attend family and focus on other goals. 

March: I spent the first half at home and the next half in Rajasthan. Days at home just passed by and remember the last days I spent with mom, trying to be as present as possible. As soon as I moved to Rajasthan after 3 months, I began to attend theatre plays, met some amazing people, tried to focus on the work and planned to travel Uttarakhand and finish the work trips and headed to Udham Singh Nagar. All the while, got selected for IHIED. Caught up with Malavika, Abhishek. 

April: Spent the first week in Uttarakhand, catching up with friends at workplace. Moved to home to catch up with friends and family. Moved to Bangalore for a few meetings, caught up with Rajashri, Shubha, Deepu. Also managed to attend Thaikudam Bridge concert at L B Stadium. 

May: Visited Bihar to attend Azhar's wedding. Moved to Univeristy and spent the whole time there catching up with colleagues, friends and everyone for one last time as I was about to leave the foundation. It was very special and had a beautiful 4 years journey. Colourless got published and had a launch at Azim Premji Univeristy. Met Vaishnavi before I left Bangalore. A very happening and momentous month. At the end, left from Shubha's place. A very special place in Bangalore I'll resort to whenever I have a chance. 

June: Returned to Jaipur and did a road trip from Delhi to Hyderabad with Prudhvi. Caught up with friends in Hyderabad, Jaipur and office colleagues. Also, began to pack to move things from Jaipur to Kadapa. Was also preparing for Colourless exhibition at Maah, Jaipur. 

July: Had colourless book launch and exhibition at Jaipur. Moved to home soon after that. Shailija arrived from Delhi to support me for the exhibition. Means a lot. Also, Pooja, Somesh, Ashish, Gaurav, Vritika, Chandrika, Shreya, Kajol, Abhishek, Ambika ji, and a lot more friends supported me all through out the journey. Left Jaipur for one last. Ashish dropped me at the airport. Met Shailja, Abhishek & Ashish before I left Jaipur. Spent good time at home preparing for the trip. 

August: Was anxious of the whole journey on one night. After that night, there was a sense of peace all through out. Left home via train. Dropped dad at airport and I gave him send off instead of receiving his send off. Mom cried as I was leaving. Stayed with Dyu and Sneha before I leave India. Celebrated the moment with Joey's pizza and Sooraj Santosh songs. Landed in Geneva. Caught up with Sanket and Simran on the first day. As days passed, I began to find my rhythm in Geneva. 

September: Caught up with alot of new people. Went to Annecy. Got to know a lot of people and their journeys to Geneva. 

October: Went to Zurich. Attended A R Rahman concert. Met him and also had the best time in Zurich, thanks to many people. Had my first exhibition in Geneva, Empty Spaces Mayanadhi. It was attended by a lot of friends and loved ones. 

November: Turned 29. Had a birthday celebration. Grateful to have a lot of lovedones celebrating my birthday. Balaji got engaged. Swathi got married. Caught up with Jaya, Syam, Bala, Vasu, Harry,Anjali, Shobha mam and other friends. 

December: Back to Geneva and spent good time reading and writing. Studied a lot about health and well being. Managed to catch up with semester endings. 

In two words, 2023 is all about grief and gratitude to me. Had an intense and eventful year. Couldn't ask anything better than this. 

Movies in 2023

This year, watched a few movies, whenever I got a chance. Last year, I watched 41 odd movies and this year it's 29. A lot of movies are worth watching again. Songs of Scorpion for Golshifteh Farahani and Irfan Khan, Thiruchitrambalam, Top Gun, Pretty Woman, Animal, Uncut Gems

  1. Monalisa Smile
  2. Songs of Scorpion
  3. Vicky and her Mystery
  4. Thiruchitrambalam
  5. Labor Day
  6. Nude
  7. Through the Eyes of a Painter
  8. Becoming Elizabeth
  9. Manmarziyan
  10. Viduthalai Part-1
  11. Ponniyan Selvan-2
  12. Paathu Thala
  13. Top Gun
  14. Balagam
  15. Yours Truly
  16. Love Story
  17. Chhatriwali
  18. Taxiwala
  19. Mission Majnu
  20. Bhramaram
  21. The Nambi Effect
  22. Pretty woman
  23. Animal
  24. Keeda Cola
  25. Uncut Gems
  26. Silverlinings Playbook
  27. Dry Day
  28. Kho Gaye Hum Kahan
  29. Shooting Stars

Books in 2023

This year, I read a lot of books by chance in the month of November and December. In the beginning of the year, I picked the gems like, Lands, Guns, Caste, Woman by Gita Ramaswamy, Em and the big Hoom by Jerry Pinto and at the end, a few books like Synchro Destiny by Deepak Chopra and book by Dr.Bruce D Perry helped me a lot to look into myself. I got a poetry book- Butterfly's Burden by Mahmood Darwish as a birthday gift presented by A. I bought couple of book as birthday gifts and continued buying a lot of books over the years. Gifted multiple copies of Em and The Big Hoom to different friends. Through books, this year has been more about trauma, health and well being. 

  1. What my Bones know by Stephanie Foo
  2. Em and the Big Hoom by Jerry Pint
  3. House of Light by Mary Oliver
  4. I want a poem by Jerry Pinto
  5. Weirdo by Zadie Smith
  6. Anya and her baby brother by Jerry Pinto
  7. Swan by Mary Oliver
  8. Synchro Destiny by Deepak Chopra
  9. A life in the Shadows by A S Dulat
  10. Asylum by Jerry Pinto
  11. You can heal your life by Louise L Hay
  12. What do you want to be when you Grow up by Jerry Pinto
  13. A comma in a sentence by R Goapala Krishnan
  14. Lands, Guns, Caste, Woman by Gita Ramaswamy
  15. What Happened to You by Bruce D Perry and Oprah Winfrey
  16. Tickle me, don't tickle me by Jerry Pinto
  17. Tales of the Open Road by Ruskin Bond
  18. Golden Years by Ruskin Bond

Saturday, December 30, 2023

Geneve Journals- Impressive Prof David Rodogno

I'm grateful to all my teachers who taught me in my life. There are a few who left a lasting impression by being themselves. The last prof who etched an impression is Dr.PSP, the one who taught me Engineering Mechanics. I loved the way he taught. He always wanted us to look beyond the problem on the pages. 

On similar lines, I could find Prof David Rodogno, being himself, communicates to look beyond what's in front of us. On the first day, he talks about doing what one really loves. Introduces course that has a very different approach to learning outcomes, pedagogy and other aspects. 

"There are too many numbers and measurement. For once, we want to do the other way. There are no assignments, no questions, no exam. Just attend and participate." Trusting the process for once to see the results is a daring task in the world of academia where people are often behind the tangible learning outcomes, to the level that one can plot the learning points on graph. 

He also curated the list which is very close to his heart. Firstly, he loves and wants all of those speakers on the list. Being very passionate about it makes me curious to learn more from his session. 

He began his first session by bursting myths of International Geneva and pushed us to stay in the question of What's International Geneve, how international is Geneve and also the other dark, bright sides of Geneva

Shared few books on Geneve, songs written on Geneve. Impressive. Looking forward to catch up more in these classes. 

Geneva Journals- The Long Walks

Finding rhythm in the fallen stems and falling leaves, I walked the path my feet took me. Sometimes, the body knows where to head. Sometimes, it's to futile to rely on thoughts. I began to walk towards the other side of the Geneva, crossed bridges, walked across the fields and strolled across the cemeteries. Without a worry of time, distance and speed, I strolled and strolled. 

Book- You can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay

I picked this book at Shubha's place. I have always wanted to read Louise Hay's work, understand about positive affirmations and the way our body works. Harry once gifted me a set of cards with affirmations. Shobha mam has helped me to understand the power of affirmations and how to work with them. I was positive to receive some food for thought from this book.  

This books is full of affirmations that can help us change the mental patterns and change our life. I observed the change in my mental patterns when I got my first smart phone in 2016. I attributed the change to the smart phone and observed how my way of thinking has clearly shifted along with the frequency of changes.  

Sometimes we're always supsecting of simple and easy ways of life. We wish to create a convoluted path for happines, prosperity, love and a lot more in our life. Change your thoughts and change your life is the basic element of this book. 

Thoughts indeed work. My body reacts differntly when I say out few affirmations. I could experience how my limiting beliefs are affecting my life. I'm glad I picked this book. It's time to put things in practice. 

A few main takeaways for me from this book as of now are- 

Willing to forgive ourselves and others.

Avoiding the word 'should' in life

Stop being critical of our selves

Willing to understand parents and their behaviour

Loving the Self

Every chapter of the book begins with an affirmation- 

"It is safe to look within."

"The Past has no power over me."

"Truth is unchangeable part of me."

"I see my patterns and I choose to make changes."

"I am in the rhthym and flow of ever changing life."

"I cross bridges with joy and with ease."

"The answers within me come to my awareness with ease."

"I enjoy practicing my new mental skills."

"All my relationships are harmonious."

"I am deeply fulfilled by all that i do."

"Every experience is a success."

"I deserve the best and I accept the best now."

"I listen with love to my body's messages."

"I am healthy, whole and complete."

At the end there's a list of diseases, associated with mental patterns and affirmations to bring the ease. Very helpful list.

One book, I'd suggest to check whoever is willing to understand holistic health. 

Friday, December 29, 2023

Book- I want a poem by Jerry Pinto

Like all other poems, Pinto's poems need to be read aloud with rigor. Despite being at Hyderabad Literary festival, I couldn't witness Pinto reciting one of his poems at Festival. I read this poem aloud with a lot of joy. A lot of poems are about poems, colours, anger, window, his father, mother and much more. Definitely a book to revisit and read aloud whenever one wishes to savour the magic of words and poetry. 

Thursday, December 28, 2023

Music in 2023

Spotify Wrapped is sharing a lot of numbers and analysis on what I listened to. But, what about the downloaded songs I listened to and the songs I listen in live and songs I play on other platforms?

Just like Books, movies in 2023, I've decided to write about Music in 2023. 

In the first few months of 2023, living in Rajasthan, folk music has been my regular go-to music. 

Manganyiar Classroom by Roysten Abel's is the first song that flashes as I think of folk music. 

Ponniyan Selvan & Pathu Thala albums were on loop for long time in the beginning of 2023

Mayakkama Kalakkama is one more song that stayed for a long while. 

Spotify says, I played 1804 songs through it's platform in this year. 15930 minutes ~ 11days. Thanks Spotify for letting me know. Listened to 1286 artists, out of which the most I listened to was, A.R.Rahman. 0.05% fans, 3227 minutes together.  Does all these numbers really tell the stories I have for each song?

Again, Spotify rated the top 5 songs for me. 

Matwari- I discovered Samahita in January and ever since I listened to her rendition of Ehi Thaiyya Motiya, I was spell bounded by her mellow voice. 

Yele Ilanchingamey- I discovered this gem latetly. I didn't listen to Cobra album fully when it got released, that's how I missed listening to it. I remember the long flights I spent only listening to this song. 

River Flows in You- Played this song in Colourless Poetry Performance. 

Mayaanadhi- This is another gem I discovered, suggested by a friend. This became the song for my 2nd exhibition. Empty Spaces- Mayanadhi. 

Kanna Varuvaayo- Another song suggestion by another friend. PRI Akhila's rendition of this classic is very impressive. 

Other than these, Hardik Chauhan's compositions, Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan's songs and western classical music 

Geneva Journals- The Chores

Ever since I moved out of home, chores has been part of life. Sometimes, I'm efficient at it, sometimes I struggle at it. I do not think I hated doing chores ever. I deprioritsed them over other tasks like writing, traveling, painting.

Till 2019 I lived alone and I was responsible for my space, work, chores. I had my way of doing them. After moving to Rajasthan, I had to share chores with Dyu and I had to say, he was very accomodative to me. He put up with me on a lot of things. We shared work and I always did the minimum I could do. When I moved to Jaipur, I struggled to get a rhythm for doing my chores. I'm grateful for all the services I had, thanks to my organisation and people around me. 

As I moved to Geneva, I could only find abundance in all the amenities and services. I need to find rhythm and little bit of planning to efficiently work on my chores. 

Tuesday, December 26, 2023

Movie- Pretty Woman

A suggested this movie long back in one of the trivia nights. As I opened Netflix, Pretty Woman was streaming on the platform. I decided to watch and I'm glad I watched it. Julia Roberts as Vivian, a hooker meets the business tycoon, Edward Lewis acted by Richard Gere. And how they fall in love is the story. I loved few compositions of the visuals. Very aesthetic and balanced. There are a few one word dialogues that came with a lot of bang. Would love to watch it again for Julia Roberts. 

Sunday, December 24, 2023

Geneve Journals- The long walks

I always got amused by the act of walking and movement. Today, I decided to spend time outdoors and walked out of my room. Comfortable clothing, a bottle of water, a few bananas and overloaded thoughts in mind that I'm unable to bear. I was all set for a stroll. I walked down to the lake and spent some time watching ducks, swans and the rippling water. In general, Geneva is quiet near the lake despite the hustle-bustle. We had a few passengers with portable speakers bringing in some rhtyhm and loudness into Geneva's atmosphere. Over a boat ride, I crossed the lake and continued my walk. 

Walking up the hill, I reached Cologny. Overlooking a church built in 1800s, there are some interesting scultpures and fountain structures near by. I continued my walk and reached a cemetry. I tried spotting a century lived graves but I contemplated on what's with the number. How much of life is well lived. Continuing to look through the numbers, I spent some time. After a long break, I continued my walk over the green fields and spacious neighborhoods. I spotted an old man cycling hands free, I spotted a squirrel in big sized statue. I continued my walk and passed through Parc La Grange and went near the  trees where there are swings under the open sky, tied to the trees. Swining is very helpful for brain regulation. I always loved swininging as a child. Though the swing is of low height, I continued to swing and spent some time. Along the lake, I continued walking. Walked till my legs were pleading me to rest. Thoughts were floating by and after a few bottles of water and rest, I feel better. Movement indeed makes life move forward. Good day. 

Friday, December 22, 2023

Geneva Journals- The Kitchen and Kachori Stories

Whenever I feel lost, I walk into kitchen and spend time either by reading or writing. Most of the times, I run into my neighbour and other person who hail from the place I lived for long time. 

I learnt a lot of cooking, mostly by conversations with them. This time I learnt the art of roasting vegetables, preparing sauces. 

A few ways to roast the veggies.

Cut them into small and even size, they get roasted easily. How couldn't I apply total surface area concept here?

Keep it colorful. The diversity brings in alot of nutrients. 

Add bit of salt, pepper, a bit of garlic into youghurt. There we have the basic stuff. 

Time to hit the oven and roast some veggies. 

Geneva Journals- La Farce Haul

This time, I walked till the Nations and got onto the tram. I was the only person on the tram as it was the first station. Soon it got filled with people. I was lost reading the book, What my bones knew. I walked across and strolled to the bibliotechque. Talking about soundscapes to a friend, I began to notice the soundscapes of Geneva. I seemed to be really attuned to a place to listen to it's soundscape. There's very little humdrum in life. There's more space and silence. What does silence speak of? I'm yet to listen. 

I checked out the books and found two interesting titles. One was "What the dead can say" by author unseen and other book, "PRESENT through the END" by Kirsten DeLeo. Author Unseen has got an interesting cover design, title and the mystery of the unknown author. 

Went to Lafarce, picked vegetables, fruits and other dry groceries. Grateful for their service. I also noticed the reader volunteering at different section. A little Lidl errands. Walking through Lidl, I wanted to treat myself with Croissant. Picked a few veggies. I could recollect the times I was lost in the first days. Even now, I struggled to select the Jam, cheese. I stared at the aisle, looking at the options and felt very lost. It's not because of language but, I do not know which to choose. All through out mychildhood, I struggled at it. Choosing the right food for me. I felt bad for myself and walked away staring at the cheese and the jam. 

I went ahead with a tram and continued my journey. A few minutes, a few pages of What my bones knew, I reached my home. GM Student Residence. A good day. 

Soliloquies- Keep some kindness to yourself

 I've noticed that I'm being critical of myself for everythought of mine, every action of mine, every word of mine. I've been troubling people around me with too many sorrys and too many thank yous. I can go ahead with thankyous but, sorrys. I should not be sorry for myself and also for others if I haven't caused any inconvenience. I'm surprised by the way I'm being critical to myself. It's time to be kind to myself and also be kind to others by being myself. 

Wednesday, December 20, 2023

Kattaleyalli | Kayakave Kailasa - Bhakti Republic OST | M. D. Pallavi an...

I'm so happy to see the work Foundation is initiating through Azim Premji University.  Do Listen to this Kannada song. 

Saturday, December 16, 2023

Geneva Journals- Merry Christmas

This friday, we had a christmas theme theatre session. This time, Anjali joined along with me. We strolled a bit and caught up with Sebastian, Constance on their studies and university life. 

Nyan walked in and then further, Sabine and Felix. Felix brought us cinnamon rolls. Gathered around the cinnamon rolls, we spoke about how 2023 was for us.

On January 15, I intended to move to Geneva and on December 15, I'm gathering around like minded individuals sharing our stories and the way we look at life. 

Nyan shared how he envision 2024 and his efforts to work through this theatre forum. Further, we worked on the play improved by Sabine, Felix, Sebastian & Constance. Slowly, one by one replaced each character in the play and improvised it well. I had fun playing with Sebastian. Elchin's improv is my favorite. 

Along with these, we had a lot of gifts to share. I received a keychain and a laminated four leaf clover.  Grateful to celebrate christmas early with these friends. At the end of the day, Elchin, Sebastian and I headed out sharing few conversations. 

Thursday, December 14, 2023

Geneva Journals- La Farce Haul & Sensing Places

I planned to visit wednesday but decided to spend time all by myself without getting out of my room. Afternoon, as ever, I took a Ziplo, the new destination and the name for the change of 15. 

I sat writing my journal and reading what I wrote. I teared up reading my written words from journal and looked sidewards- Butini Station. I had some best memories at Pickwicks, Butini station and now, I'll remember this memory. I wonder, how I sense places I live in. 

I walked to the Bibliotechque and picked a book Intimate Death- How the Dying teach us to live, by Marie De Hennezel. 

Off to Lafarce to pick up the veggies and fruits and returned home. 

Tuesday, December 12, 2023

Thoughts- Writing for well-being

Writing has always helped. I picked writing when I was unable to communicate. Sounds Ironic!

I always had a bent for sounds, oration and speech. I always looked forward for an English class during my 4th grade, as I always get a chance to read the text aloud, with a lot of intonation, pauses and feel. Thanks Kiranmayi mam for never discouraging me on that. Since then, I was happy go lucky student, always participating in monologues, elocution, debates. I picked writing when I was unable to communicate my feelings. Very overwhelmed with adoloscence. That's when I wrote a dairy jotting my thoughts and shared it with my Dad and asked him to read it. He read it and got the whole text typed it for me. Back in 2008, typing the whole text that your 14 year old adoloscent son wrote in a diary. It means a lot. 

After that, I picked up writing diary as a regular task on Jan 4 2009, a friend's birthday and had something to write about. Since then, I continued writing. There were few instances where writing seemed to be a daunting task in life but, when I begin writing, It always helped. 

There's no sense of fear, no sense of judgement as you write. 

Quote of the day- Engaging-Relational

“The first demand any work of art makes upon us is surrender. Look. Listen. Receive. Get yourself out of the way. (There is no good asking first whether the work before you deserves such a surrender, for until you have surrendered you cannot possibly find out).” 

                                                                                 – C.S. Lewis, An Experiment in Criticism, 1961 

2023- 2023 in Months

As 2023 is paving way for 2024, let me see how 2023 flashed by in months. 

January- Swathi got engaged, Dyu got married. Attended HLF and caught up with harry & Jerry Pinto

February- Visited Tamil Nadu, Karnataka and spent in my favourite (Kalaburagi) campus for one last time for the year

March- Returned to Rajasthan, got admitted to Geneva Institute, caught up with Malavika

April- Visited Uttarakhand, Bangalore and returned to Jaipur.

May- Attended Azhar bhai's wedding. Spent the re
st of the month in Bangalore. Colourless got launched. Caught up with Vaishnavi, Priayatama, Rakesh, Rajneesh, Arddhendu, Sonia

June- Went on a long drive from Delhi to Hyderabad, caught up with Prudhvi, Jaya and all other friends.

July- Colourless art exhibition got hosted in Jaipur. Returned to Kadapa. 

August- Met Dyu, left for Geneva

September- Visited Annecy. Explored Geneva

October - Met A.R.Rahman. Hosted Empty Spaces- Mayanadhi exhibition in Geneva

November - Went on a 5 hour walk in Geneva. Swathi got married. Bala got engaged. 

December - Spent most of the time reading books and prioritised my health,  caught up with old & new friends

Tuesday, December 5, 2023

Thoughts- What's in a name?

Most of the times, when I catch up with people whom I met once or twice in a heartful manner, I speak with a lot of familiarity, when I meet them again, as I remember a lot of details from our previous meets. The others struggle to recollect the details. Sometimes people get intimidated when I share with the details of dates, names and places from the past. Catching up with such one acquaintance, at first he got intimidated by such recollection. As we continued our co
nversation, I asked the meaning of his name. Freedom, he replied. Curious to know the story behind we continued our conversation. Later, we brainstormed on ideas like, if we have to name ourselves by verb, what would we name us?

It's interesting to name ourselves by verbs, adverbs rather than living upto our names, which may be the definition of us put by our parents. How much do we try to live by our parent's definition of us and how much do we try to define ourselves through the help of all the people we have in our life?

Geneva Journals- Snow and Sunflower Field

After a week break, I'm back and walked out of room witnessing the snow. After a two hour class, it was snowing heavily. I quickly went home, had lunch and went for a walk. 

To see the snow falling and melting. I noticed that everything was covered with snow. Leaves, trees. I held the snow and began to make shapes. I was interested to create a maze and structure rather than round balls of snow. Machine Drawing effects. Thanks Shivraj sir for influencing so much with machine drawing. 

As I saw the same landscape with snow all over, it was refreshing how places and people are resilient to all forms of nature. 

I went and looked at the sprawling land and heard the flights. I wonder how does pilots fly during a snowy day. 

I returned home watching the leafless trees filled with snow. It's aesthetic and poetic. The leaves seems to have shrouds filled by snow. Every leaf that has died falling from the tree has a shroud of snow, ready to put it in the place where it came from- Earth. 

Monday, November 20, 2023

Soliloquies- 29th Birthday

A few hours before birthday, I was not sure how my day was turning out to be. I was intuitive the world is going to celebrate my birthday for me as every year it happens, but, the other side of me pushed me to shut down and sit in my room dominantly. In the conundrum of a lot of emotions, I was struggling to process it. This time, I was crumbling down and got scared of myself. 

Luckily, this birthday has been one to teach me a lot of life lessons. Hope I'll stay with them and walk them in my life. 

"Being in the past depresses you. Being in future makes you feel anxious. Stay attentive to life, you'll live."

These days, painting grounds me to stay in the moment and I was rigorously painting until I heard several knocks on my door. I opened the door to see Sandra, Shivam, Gayatri and alot more in the background singing for me. Those smiling faces communicated more than what words would say. I could sense that they're very happy to share this moment with me. All of them walked into my room wishing me with a happy birthday song. As I was struggling to keep up with emotions my body is throwing at me, I took a moment for myself and joined the crowd. 

Ann, Adhira, Anjali, Archit, Epsa, Gayathri, Giri, Harshitha, Jyot,Prathit, Sandra, Shivam, Sanket, Vinathi gathered at community kitchen and were waiting for me. A lovely cake and a lot of efforts to lit up the candle, I could see the faces filled with happiness as well as bit tiredness. They had a full blast Diwali party and after that, they chose to wish me and celebrate my birthday. I'm grateful for everything. While the crowd was cheering me up and singing Chamak Challo, Pal dheere dheere, Mayanadhi and some other songs, I cut the cake and began the birthday celebration. 

I had a chance to catch up with Sandra & Archit after a long time. There's more silence than stories that always flowed between us. Ann, Archit, Sandra, Shivam & Vinathi spent a few minutes. Ann walked in with a book of poetry. I'm touched by the gesture. Thanks Ann, books mean a lot to me.

We walked down till the nations and Ann, Vinathi, Jyot headed to Cite. Shivam to Vernier. I encouraged Archit to come out on a walk with me. We walked along and I showed him my favourite path to institute and then walked across jardin botanique, WTO, and reached the lake. We sat across the lake and  spent long time sharing all that's happening at our end. Archit shared the wish to explore Geneva and how he misses Delhi. I went on nostalgia trip and shared how my birthday were spent from 2012. Knowing that I have a lot to share, I was immensely grateful to be old. I'm 29. 

Along with it, we spent time and I walked back home. I've already spent nights walking across nation at different hours. 

I woke up to the calls of mom, Dad, Akhila and other family members, messages. An hour on calls, I got ready and walked but without knowing where to go. I just wished to stay outdoors. 

I had one place in mind and I took a bus to the far location of Geneva and reached there. From there, I began to walk along the trail. 

Over a walk, I was reflecting on my life and birthdays. Important life lessosn I reflected on. 

1) Grieve for the loss. Loss of lives, loss of relations, loss of money, loss of places, loss of job. I've always felt I always moved ahead celebrating the lives, relations, money, places, jobs I had. Little did I realise that loss causes grief and to grieve is to be human. Due to life events, I stumbled on this thought and learning a lot about grief and loss. 

2) Learn to love yourself by actions but not words. 

This has been the eye opening as I always put myself and my needs at the last, thinking it's egoistic to put my needs first but, when I hit the stage where I'm unable to function well as I realised the critical situation of saving ourselves from everything. 

Walking amidst trees adn nature,  and I felt immensely grateful for everything in life. I have so many people in my life who share love with me. Dont' label love but also be clear of what you want. 

I walked across fields, and watched the trees. Every now and then I stop myself looking at the trees, grass and the fields. In that way, I walked for 4-5 hours getting into the another point in the city. There was a bus which was heading to some location. I rushed and got onto the bus. I got down at the stop and I noticed a church. I walked into the church to spend some time alone.  Churshces gives you sense of peace. I prayed and spent some time. I noticed that they have a beauitul organ and colorful glass walls. 

Taking harry's suggestuion, I've deiced to treat myself for this birthday and I realised how difficult is it for me to treat myself. Knowing that I've already sent gifts to friend who shared my birthday, i couldn't buy myself a stone that i love of it's texture a, shape  and colour. A reminder to love yourself and it's the reflection of the world. 

I was uncomrortable to buy it but, I pushed myself and bought the stone. A reminder to love yourself before you love the world. 

My Dad always gave us boutniful. I always saw him giving or bring us in fulls. If my dad buys anything for anyone, its' always a lot. Either he gives a lot if not nothing. Always, in full measure. Always abundant. I always love that. You give heartiful and give as you feel. But, when he wants to get something he wishes others to buy but he doesn't get it on his own. I also like it when others buy for me. But, I should learn to buy for me before expecting others to buy it for me. 

Continuing my long walk, I walked around the neighbourhood and got onto another bus without knowing where to head. I got on a bus and the next step was this plainpalais cemetery. A beautiful one. This year seems to be the year of grief and gratitude. I walked along watching the graves and imagining the lives of humans who rested. 

I noticed an old man sitting next to a grave. For once I though he was a life size statue but, his sighs hinted me that he's a human. He was grieving. Grieving in his own ways. We shouldn't escape grieving. 

I worked on that thought and walked along watching how long they've lived and how a few lives persished before it bloomed. When do you call a life worth loved.

Grateful to be alive.  

And walked again for miles till I reached la jonction. Another reminder, I can't starve myself and  say I love myself. Love through actions. I headed to home to feed myself food. I made myself a simple hot sandwhich. Over it caught up with messages and calls. 

Over the past week, N was inviting me for dinner and the plan never got materialised. Luckily, we decided to have dinner on my birthday. I headed to her place for birthday dinner. Over chicken, rice and some wine, we had a lovely dinner, sharing our stories and lives. 

After a lovely dinner, we headed to church for the mass. After the mass, caught up with A, N & M to  celebrate the birthday with caracs, a dish I got introduced by N. 

 Before I call it a day, I wished myself a happy birthday a reminder to love myself through actions and also words. 

What an eventful day. Loved it.

Sunday, November 19, 2023

Friends- Aaaand Bala is engaged

What a moment to celebrate this. Bala and Veda got engaged. November seems to be Bala's month. On November 25 2017, Retro got opened and on November 19 2023, he got engaged with his love, Veda. It pains me a bit to miss these moments but, I'm trying to accept the life as it comes and be grateful for it. Happy for this adorable couple!


Movie- Silverlinings Playbook

Despite being an admirer of Jennifer Lawrence's acting, I postponed watching this movie a lot of times. I wonder why.  Bradley Cooper as Pat, has a restraining order and is hopeful to get back to his wife Nikki. He runs into Tiffany and the story begins. 

Jennifer, as ever, was at her best. Loved her acting. Would love to watch it again for JL

Saturday, November 18, 2023

Thoughts- Poetry

Things I hear from others whenever I mention word, 'Poetry'

"I don't get poetry. For poetry, I think you need to have a calm mood and simple times."

"I need mountains, blue sky and then I can read some poetry."

Everyone have their way of liking something. Many atimes, people want to make sense out of poetry. We may not make a sense out of poetry, but, we can always use our five senses and sense it. Listen to a poem only as sounds. Close your eyes and let a reader read out a poem to you. See a poem and look how the shape of words flow. 

There are many ways to sense a poem rather than making sense out of it. 

It's difficult to find writer friends, poet friends. If you have them, keep them close. I'm grateful to have a few who always help me grow in life. 

Friday, November 17, 2023

Poem of the day- Mary Oliver

Geneva Journals- La Farce and Book Haul

There are a few tiny things I look forward on a thursday. Book haul enroute La Farce and the orange juice at Lidl. This time, I got three books even though I was planning to treat me a lot as birthday gifts but, couldn't get good titles. The culture map by Erin Meyer. The Secret History by Donna Tart & A Class of Their Own by Matt Knot. Will pick to read one of these in near time. 

During La Farce haul, I found one person reading a book with a bright wide smile on her face. So happy to see someone getting lost in the act of reading. 

I saw you enjoying the book thoroughly, I siad, 'What are you readng?'

"Elegance of HedgeHog" she shared the book with a smile. Another title to look out for. 

I had a fresh soft waffle at LaFarce. Loved it. Thanks La Farce team for the yummy waffle and croissant. 

Good day. 

Geneva Journals- A Calm and Lively Dinner

Conversations over dinner table about everything under the sun are the memories I'm going to cherish the most. I'm positive that I'm going to be abundant with these memories in Geneva. 

This time, watching Miss Calm cook chicken, I was inspired and began to cook in her style under her supervision. Miss Lively walked in, wearing a smile and stories over the sleeves. She shared how carrots and coffee made her write a poem and recited it. As ever, a splendid one. 

A dinner with chicken sphagetti, carrot rice and my amateur chicken and rice, we shared our lives. Mostly through incidents and sometimes through memories. Knowing the grey weather we've in ourselves and around us, Miss Calm encouraged me to not miss out little things in life but also to take care of myself in the most possible ways. Miss Lively came up with brilliant analogies to pep me up. "If you've a mosquito biting you, the pain or experience may be present for 5 minutes. You can't avoid the bite to avoid the pain. The trick is to let the painful experience subside to 4 minutes, then 3 minutes, then 2 minutes."

As an enthusiastic listener, I was ambitious and said," at the end we should let the painful experience reaction to be under a minute." Miss Calm, calmly asserted, "we're humans. We're meant to have feelings. You can't intend to avoid everything."

Another tip I enjoyed receiving was way to find tiny little pleasant things in life. Miss Lively shared how she makes notes of tiny little things that brought a smile on her face. "Be it tiny, notice it!" she shared. 

Thanks to Miss Calm and Miss Lively who always regaled me with their stories, experiences and advices. I'm grateful to have you over the dinner and share a conversation. 

Tuesday, November 14, 2023

Thoughts- Writing & Sharing

Many a times, I do not speak what I little know of. 

About writing, poetry, education, language. I'm sure I do not know a lot about these but I've begun to learn a little bit about all of these. I was glad I could be of help when a few old friends reached out to me to know a bit about these. I should start myself to share if it's gonna help anyone, anywhere, in anyplace. 

Monday, November 13, 2023

Interesting Story- Books and Gifts

I feel immensely joyful to read this story. Lovely journey of a book, 11 year old daughter who turned designer and a mother who sow seeds of love and in return is only filled with love, love and only love. 

Sunday, November 12, 2023

Geneva Journals- Swiss Chambers Music Concert

I went ahead with the pass I got to collect my ticket. Are you a music student? the lady at the reception, enquired. No, I answered. You may have to pay 10Fr, if you're general student. She replied. 10 CHF. That's worth of 3 litres of orange juice, 4 10*10 canvases. I gave it a thought and stayed silent. Please collect the ticket and enjoy the concert, she smiled and handed over the ticket. 

She was allowing me to enter freely. I felt immensely blessed by the kind gesture. I walked with a happy smile and took a front seat.

The Swiss Chambers concert has these instruments and was blown away by the performance. 

The audience enjoyed it hence, they clapped continuously for long time that the musicians who walked out of the stage returned twice to receive the appreciation. That was quite impressive. May be I seemed to be the only one who took the phone out to record few moments. The audience at the concert definitely know how to enjoy the performance unlike me. 

On an average, the age group of the audience was 50+. I began to notice organs at every place I visited. This place has an impressive organ. Would love to witness a performance on this. 

Saturday, November 11, 2023

Book- Synchrodestiny by Deepak Chhopra

The way I got to know about this book itself is a miracle. The life events that followed in my life in the month of October is beyond more than coincidences. I went to Zurich on impulse without money, without a plan, without a place to stay, to volunteer for A.R.Rahman concert. Getting to know about A.R.Rahman concert as well as getting selected to it itself is a major coincidence in my life. 

After traveling to Zurich, I met Soujanya, who helped me to find a place and suggested this book, "Synchrodestiny by Deepak Chhopra"

I'm glad I picked it up. I'll jot down the words and quote author's words rather than my views on the book. 

It starts with physics Heisenberg principle on the duality of nature and how there's material world and also world beyond the materials that we perceive. 

Author talks about matter, mind and spirt. There are different types of domains. Physical domain, quantum domain and the non-local domain. The non-local domain is explained by various physics principles- heisenberg, schrodinger and other physicists. 

There's synchonicity in nature which reflects harmony. A flock of birds, school of fish, moving in a synchronous way. Author points out, that "there's not enough time for any exchange of information, so any correlation of activity among the birds must be happening nonlocally."

"Examples of synchronicity can be found most often in the animal world because animals are more in touch with the essential nature of things. We humans lose our sense of connectedness in a welter of concerns about rent payments, which car to buy or any of million other distractions."

The nature of the soul is described as, "In the vastness of the ocean, there's no ego. Seen from a great distance, from the moon or a satelite, the ocean looks calm and inanimate, a large swath of blue girdling the earth. But as we get closer and closer to the ocean itself, we see that it is in constant motion, roiled by currents, tides, eddies and waves. We see these ocean patterns as distinct entities. As each wave is created, we can watch its crest, break and race to the shore. Yet it is impossible to seperate the wave from the ocean."

The soul derives from non-local domain and we belong to local and non-local domain. We seem to belong to everyone yet, we feel quite individual. 

Soul in author's words- "A soul is the observer who interprets and makes choices based on karma, it is also a confluence of relationships, out of which emerge contexts and meaning, and it is this flow of context and meaning that creates experience."

Simply asking a question or trying to recall an event converts a virtual memory into a real memory- This is a very interesting perspective to ponder on stay in the question rather than hurrying to find the answers. 

"Intention, imagination, insight, intuition, inspiration, meaning, purpose, creativity, understanding, all these have nothing to do with brain. They orchestrate their activity through the brain, but they are qualities of the nonlocal domain, which is beyond space and time. Still, their impact is felt very strongly. Once they enter our minds, we have to do something with them, and what we do with them determines, in part, who you define yourself to be. 

Intention- "Physical reality would not exist were it not for intent. Intent activates nonlocal, synchronized correlation in the brain. Whenever there is cognition or perception of physical reality, the brain's disparate region shows a "phase and frequency of locking in," of the firing patterns of individual neurons in different parts of the brain. "

"This nonlocal synchronisation around a frequency of forty hertz(forty cycles per second). This synchronisation, also called binding, is a requirement for cognition. Without it you would not see a person as a person, a house as a house, a tree as a tree, or a face in the photograph as a face. You might just observe dots of black and white, scattered lines...."

Author quoted a few lines from upanishads, 

"You are what your deepest desire is. As is your desire, so is your intention. As is your intention, so is your will. As is your will, so is your deed. As is your deed, so is your destiny."

"Whatever you put your attention on becomes energized."

"Attention activates the energy field and intention activates the information field, which causes transformation."

A few questions to stay with

Who am I? What do I want for my life? What do I want from my life today?

There are basics of meditation and there are 7 principles to meditate upon. I'd definitely revisit this book. 

Thursday, November 9, 2023

Poetry- The Purple Balloon

I bought a purple balloon
to play with
to kick
to float
to fly
to have it around

Is it not too late to play with balloons
One could ask

What would I do, If I say yes to 

Memories - A.R.Rahman and I

I'm humbled by the journey and the way I got a chance to share the space for few moments with A.R.Rahman who's been there with me, through his music and words.

Sunday, November 5, 2023

Geneva Journals- Conversations over Calls

People who know me knows how much I love talking in-person. Also, people who know me knows how much I keep moving. Moving all the time in life, I try to do my best to catch up with people in-person whenever possible. 

Moving to Geneva, the option of traveling to places to catch up with friends got limited. Never a fan of WhatsApp Calls but, I'm learning to connect to people over this new medium. Something is better than anything.

Thoughts- Love over anything

All of us always have choices. Choosing Love over anything is the best thing that we do to ourselves as well as the world. Love drives compassion, kindness, empathy and all that brings peace in life. Choosing love is tough but, that's the right thing to do. 

Saturday, November 4, 2023

Geneva Journals- The Theatre Huddle

Elchin was lying on the floor, enjoying the view. I joined her and asked, when did she begin enjoying theatre? She mentioned that she was late and started enjoying theatre since high school. If she began enjoying theatre in high school and feels she's late, I wondered how I'd should feel who began to acknowledge and appreciate theatre since 4 years. 

Nyan walked in and this time, we balanced the stage, walked across, selected a partner, did mirror, hypnosis and gold fish. Everything was a flow! We transitioned so smoothly and with the apt music, we were tapping our bodies, warming up as well as adding rhythm. 

This time, we delved more on image theatre and began to make images. It's interesting how I presented myself from the events happening in my life rather than thinking too much about what I shoudl portray. And that's what seemed to work. Who am I ? What's my story? If we are here to express ourselves? Why not put ourselves on the spot rather than sharing any other story. 

As people joined, the story began to weave and Nyan helped us to find our characters and what we're intending to perform. Surprisingly none of them had an eye contact with anyone. Miscommunication, not willing to talk. Fear of being there to have difficult conversation are few thoughts that flashed. 

Who are you? What do you want? are few questions that helped us to ponder on what exactly do we want out of it?

Later, through an active meditation, we were given instructions to visualise. we performed Big ear where we listen to others, to understand. Elchin and I worked together on this exercise. We share other's stories as our stories. 

At the end, we discussed, how we could use this stories to build a play. 

Friday, November 3, 2023

Movie- Monalisa Smile

 Over several lunches and dinners, I managed to finish watching this movie as I found this movie too overwhelming to watch it in one go. I got introduced to this movie by Jeet Bhai. In one of the educational courses, Jeet bhai uses this clip on the role of a teacher. What does teacher need to do? If teacher's job is to tell what's in the books then, what value a teacher is adding. 

The movie is exactly about this. How does Miss Katherine Watson makes her students think! Think about art, life, and everything that pushes themselves to be a better self. I cried at the end looking how a teacher can touch many lives and got reminded of teachers who taught me to think and shaped me the person I'm. 

To name a few teachers who impacted my life in one way or the other  Jyothi mam, George Prakash sir, Masood sir, Kiranmayi mam, Anil sir, Satyanarayana sir, Sunita mam, Bala sir, Sister Anitha, Ajith sir, Mani sir, Vijay sir, Ratnamala mam, Padmaja mam, Radha krishna sir, Devender, Prof PSP, Shivraj, Subhanand rao, Kiranmayi, D.N.Rao, Harry, Kiran Chakravarthula sir, Kanchana mam, Satvir, Bade Bhaiya, Dyu, Hitesh, Arddhendu, Sunil Bisht, Navneet Bedar, Krishna, Anagh, Shubha, Sameeksha,  

Thursday, November 2, 2023

Geneva Journals- The Book Haul

Every week, as I walk along Augustins, I stop at the Bibliotheque to check out the English books. As it's cloudy they locked all the book boxes. Nevertheless, I went across to ask if there are any books. Everytime, whoever is along with me, accompany me to the store. This time, Jyot accompanied me. She picked D.H.Lawrence Lady Chatterly's Lover and another book on Irish jokes. 

I picked four books and I'm happy with my haul. This time, I was gifted a tote bag by the Librarian.  I feel so abundant by the way people are willing to give me generously. What a way to start the day. 

Wednesday, November 1, 2023

Thoughts- Room Number? Home Number?

Recently I had to share the directions to my friend of my residence. I shared, "This is my Home Number xxxx" In few minutes, the friend showed up, had a conversation and while leaving, friend appreciated the way I mentioned home number rather than room number.  Thanks friend for sharing whay you liked about it. 

Room of  single studio with one window is my home. The place where I live is my home and I can't locate myself in a place where I don't live and I can't missing the places I've lived as I carry all the places I live and I'm grateful for them. 

Tuesday, October 31, 2023

Geneva Journals- The Old Walking Couple

 I began my run despite the drizzle and the wet roads. Listening to music, podcasts while running has became distraction now. I'm more keen to hear my breathe and feel the rhythm of it. Also, the soundscape of the places I visit are very interesting. I went across the chapel and thought of taking a long turn to sunflower field. To make it a long path, I turned left, instead of right and headed to a place where I found this powerful statue that marks the revolution of Hungary 1956. It's a statue of woman who's unshackling herself and flying above. Very powerful. I stopped for a while to spend time at the statue. The human figure has a lot of dynamics and the woman looks below looking how she's transforming herself. 

A very much needed of work to believe in transformation and change in life. Will revisit sometime. I continued my run and spotted some sheep, right infront of a corporate building. The sheep stood still staring into the void (atleast that's what I assume)

Ran across the dying leaves and wondered where does these leaves be moved, transformed, and bloom into another beings. I could think of the thought, 'every experience is an opportunity to learn and grow.' 

Running across the streets, I went a round about and began my run towards the sunflower field. This time, again I ran into dog-Snow and the dog owner, walking along with a friend carrying colourful umbrellas.

What an experience to walk along the fields and share conversations, I thought and ran to the other field. There I found an old couple enjoying the breath taking sight. 

It's nice when people spend time together and enjoy their walks. I tried to begin a conversation with them. At first, with signal we tried communicating but, I couldn't understand it. The elderly person opened the phone and spoke in chinese. And the translated text was, "Sorry I don't understand french because I speak Chinese."

The elderly lady held her pink umbrella and looked at both of us, trying to be part of the communication we're having.

I was amazed by the way we were communicating. I nodded my head and smile profusely while he spoke a few more sentences into phone. "Myself and my wife are 76. We're too old to learn it now." He showed it with a pleasant face. I love the way they're enjoying their day. 

Have a nice day I said out loud despite I know that he'd perceive my English as French. I joined my hands as a sign of respect and took a step behind to run back to home. Glad to meet 76 year old couple who takes a walk into nature and enjoys a cloudy rainy day. 

Sunday, October 29, 2023

Day-4 Empty Space Maya Nadhi

I'm hardly present at my exhibition and I do not know how my work is affecting to all the ones who walked by. That's how life is I guess. 
We walk the path in oblivion of how we are affected by others and how we affect other's lives. 

Post 2 PM, I walked into exhibition and shared space with Ainun. 

I had couple of people walk in and were very impressed with my work. I'm so happy to evoke an emotion through my art. Elena and I had a deep conversation where we discussed empty spaces and human condition. Ainun was there clicking all of the pictures. 

Gayathri and Epsa finished their econometrics and looked forward to check out my exhibition. Epsa being Epsa, forgot about my exhibition. Both walked in and they witnessed my work from the beginning and know some stories behind the art. They were happy to witness the way it turned out. 

People walked in and shared a conversation. Everywhere I go, there are people who run into me and share, 'I checked your exhibition, good work.' I'm grateful, they chose to share a response with me. 

At the end, I invited Ann to walk into the exhibition. Despite having a heavy day, she came and was happy for me and the responses I got in the book. Thanks Ann for joining me at the exhibition. We clicked pictures and walked out of the college. 

At night, along with Epsa, Gayathri, Anjali and Adhira, we celebrated and caught up in conversations. Glad to have people around to share space and some conversations. 

Day2- Empty Spaces-Maya Nadhi Art Exhibition

It's surprising how I'm waking up from sleep with poems calling out to me get written down. I grabbed the book and penned down the words. 

Scribbled this piece and I'm marveled by how this words are very precious to me at the same time, I'm not the author of these words. Through dreams, I've just written them down. 

Flowing through places
I stayed in the question of empty spaces

I walked through fields
I walked through waters
I walked through lakes
I walked through rivers

I met a sunflower
who smiled like a sunshine

All or nothing she said
to live a life

Through hardships, heartbreaks,
crisis and conundrum

The Sun flower stood

sometimes smiling
sometimes straight
sometimes through stories
sometimes through silences

In a rhapsody of tranquility
she flowed

Always floating on a stable ship
shearing waters

Lying down at night
waking up with the hope

Hope that hauls sun
even through cloudy weather

Flowing through spaces
filling emptiness by her presence. 

She's not the flower
but the river that flows mystically

Mayanadhi flowing through empty spaces

A gush of energy to share this poem across to the world. With a few poems, few stories, you are driven to put them out in the world.  Soon after I started my day, I was mailing my profs requesting for a timeslot so that I could recite this poem and share about my exhibition. 

These days, I'm very laid back in pushing my work across. A few art works and people behind it inspire me to put myself out and grow in this world. "Empty it out and stay open."

I dressed in my signature black Kurta and walked into my exhibition. I'm so happy to be out there. 

The teaser got played on the big screen. I was breathing very deeply, exhilirated to see it on the big screen. I enjoyed each and every moment of it. I walked 

After classes, Rachel M Bon, visiting prof, acclaimed film maker of Je suis Noire, shared interest to check out my exhibition. 

Along with her, other friends walked into my exhibtion. Sandra was the one who encouraged them to check out the exhibition. Thanks Sandra for spreading the word. 

Puru walked in and was curious to check out my exhibiton. He asked me if I had a particular reason to put out the crumbled and cut paper poetry. Along with them, Astonia and her friend shared how they checked out my art in absence and had a lot of questions and comments. 

Another visitor walked into the exhibition, asking out what this is about. As I shared the story behind empty spaces and maya nadhi, she observed the art and laughed looking at the last piece.

"You're an artist, who lives in your own mind." she shared having a intermittent laugh. Thanks for the compliment madam. 

She further wrote her response and maya nadhi in her home language and walked out of the space. 

After the a little hustle, Sandra joined me and shared a conversation. Tanya walked in and appreciated the work and encouraged me to spread the word. She clicked some visuals and video and pushed me to be out there and spread it. At the end of the day, we walked out discussing art, stories. 

I decided to celebrate whole week and I went to Salsa class to dance around and celebrate. I met many new people. A lot of them mentioned about the art exhibition and promised me to check it out and respond soon. Glad that people are interested in art and taking some time to share a space with me. Grateful. Another great day. 

Geneva Journals- The Sunflower Field run

Cloudy weather and I seek solace in the empty fields. The fields which give me a sense of hope and comfort. I ran towards the fields and spent some time. While returning, I met a dog named, Snow. Like it's name, it's white and full of curl fur. It's owner has a smiling face and is enjoying his walk. I wondered How does one come up with a name and continued my run. I'm glad I meet new dog every day. 

Geneva Journals- Theatre Huddle

I joined the theatre group headed by Nyan Storey, who does writing, acting, theatre direction, choreography and a lot more. "Everything is linked" he writes on his website. Totally agree to it. 

Today Nyan wasn't there for some reason. Five of us began the session. Sebastian, Elchin, Claudia, Felix and two others were present in sesion. 

We walked across the space trying to balance it out. Walking through the space, we tried locking eye contact with one person and kept on walking around trying to share the space as well as take our own space.  Soon we performed mirror exercise and transitioned slowly. 

It's very interesting how we shared the space as well as tried connecting with others and flow easily amongst others. 

There are many exercises I learnt today. After performing shoulder fish. 

We performed Market game where the customer performs an emotion and seller mirrors it. It was super fun. In the beginning, I acted as deaf person and second time, I acted as a person who thinks, he has to buy something but, not really. The seller also thinks to sell but not really, it was fun. 

Others performed excitement, seriousness, anger, romantic and many other emotions. 

Every once in a while, we gathered in a circle to share how we're feeling after the exercises. There's no right or wrong answer. And it's okay even if we don't have answer. 

We shared stories by introducing ourselves. Felix shared how he drew firefighters when he was small by causing heavy fire in the field. Sebastian shared how he fractured his finger, shared the picture with his father saying, 'lol', as he didn't feel the pain at all. Worried dad called up the school, hospital and alarmed everyone to bring son to attend the injury, while son continued playing football without a worry. 
Elchan shared how she was almost missing the flight but made it despite elders pointing out for her issues. There's one more person who shared how she went out for run and forgot the key inside. Her land lord had to come from south france had to Geneva, just to hand over the key to open the door. Patient Land Lord. 

Claudia shared how she clebrates the day of the dead and tried hard to bake th bread and failed. 

We played Hiya, the imaginative blue ball, stinky shoe and alot more fun stuff. 

Learnt a alot of new things today. I'm happy to share space with others and learn about them, learn about myself and what do I express. 

There was one exercise where we need to walk and intensify the emotion that's portrayed by others.

Great day. 

Saturday, October 28, 2023

Happy birthday Tanya

On a rainy day, I ran into Tanya at the bus stop and shared a conversation. Many a times, we meet a lot of people but do not spend time to know each other well. That conversation was the first one to catch up with her and learn a bit about what she does and what she likes.  

Tanya has her own ways of celebrating her birthday. Sleeping for long time is one her birthday ritual and continued it, even in Geneva. After starting the day at her own time, celebrated in her own ways and bought everything that she wanted and made her happy. 

Argha hosted a surprise party and invited couple of her friends. Glad to be one of her friends to be invited. I joined them at the party and caught up with Kushi, Sibasish, Anuj, Shivam while Sanskriti was doing the tougest part, cooking food for all of us. 

Tanya walked in without knowing about the party. With a sweet surprise, we wished her and began the party. The mood got right with music, cake, food, drinks and stories. Argha selected Harry Potter illustrated edition as a gift to her. Being potter heads, she absolutely loved it and cherished it. 

Sitting across the couches, we shared more about us through i

ncidents, memories. We discussed more on how we enjoy life leaving the burden of expectations and assumpitons at bay. I'm glad to be old. I have a lot of memories to cherish and look forward to create more. 

While Sanskriti and Argha prepared for dinner, we continued our conversations and shared our interests. 

Hans Zimmer is Tanya's one of her favourite musician. We celebrated the moment listening to Interstellar theme. Knowing the answer of question, what's her favourite fiction book, I asked what's her favourite non-fiction book. 

'Predictably irrational' by Dan Ariely is her favourite. 

As the conversations flowed, the vibe kicked in and I enjoyed each and every moment of it. Thanks Tanya for spreading smiles and happiness and celebrating your birthday with us. Great time. Happy birthday once again. 

Geneva Journals - Every one has their own philosophy

Catching up with a few friends, they shared, "Everyone has a philosophy. And that's what drives them in life."

Utilitarianism is one for a friend,  "Why do something more when you can do something less?" is something for another friend.  I recollected my answer which I shared 7 years ago to the same question to another friend, "Learn.Love.Live" I still stand with the same answer. 

Friday, October 27, 2023

Day3- Empty Spaces Maya Nadhi

I wish I placed the GoPro to capture the hustle around my exhibition. 

Miantsa walked in with me to the exhibition and patiently checked out my exhibition. She shared how her mother is artist and also her sister, pursuing art studies. Glad to know many people who are interested in art. 

I stayed there for a while and at the same time, Sruthi walked in and stayed curious with my empty spaces. She observed all the human figures in the paintings and tried guessing who it'd could be. "The girl with a bun. Who's this person?" she asked. A familiar question I don't answer to. 

She responded to the concept of Empty Spaces by writing and sketching for a while. Thanks Sruthi for dropping by and sharing a conversation. 

The best moment of the day was when my art prof walked towards and said, "Hi, I checked the art exhibition of yours. I like your use of colours." I was so touched by her appreciation. It means alot. "I'm not a big art critic but, I enjoyed it. They are really nice." she continued. 

Another friend walked in and said, I attended your exhibition. I enjoyed it. My sister was in town, I brought her to the exhibition. Thanks dear friend for spending time at the exhibition and also sharing the word with me. 

Grateful for all the responses. Looking forward to see how the week spans out. 

Wednesday, October 25, 2023

Music- Kanna Varuvayo by PRI

Sandra suggested me to listen to this song. On a cloudy day, this soothing melody made my day. Thanks Sandra for the suggestion. Looking more about the artist, I found the spotify bio of the artist interesting. Glad she picked up the music her parents put her in.

"Here to show you that the sangeetham class that your parents put you in can change your entire life."

Tuesday, October 24, 2023

Day1- Empty Spaces- Maya Nadhi Art Exhibtion

I woke up with a dream where I was rambling words. Again a stream of subconsciousness. To know what I'm thinking, I grabbed my journal to write them down and wrote these lines from sleep.

Measuring distances in making conversation
Walking out in path
You're at distance afraid to not mislead
I'm at distance not to discomfort you
Will we always measure distance and make friendship?
You're there
I'm here

Will we ever be those friends again? 

Losing a friend is a haunting melancholy. I was scared to host this exhibition. If you ask why, I do not have reason. It's irrational fear. I was not ready for the day and I was wondering if I should mail my team that I can't make it up to the exhibition. 

I was nervous. I was overwhelmed with this exhibition. I'm scared by what evokes me with these events after I got surprised by myself at Colourless Bangalore Book launch.  A few messages by dear friends, I gathered strength to move forward irrespective of my fears. 

Tamara and Marina were supportive and dropped me mail briefing all the basics. As I rushed to the institute to set up the exhibition, I could see the exhibition poster, neatly placed at the entrance. I was bit hesitant to do any publicity. The Fab did it all for me. From designing the posters to publishing them at places with a lot of care. I love it. 

Thanks Fab for brilliant work

Marina helped me out with lights and space and as I began to set up the post cards racing against time, Ann walked in along with her friend to check out my exhibition. I dragged them to help me. They were glad to help me out in any possible way. Ann and Celia were cutting the plaster and handing it out while I was selecting the post cards. Without them, I wouldn't have set it up in time.  Asking time every 2 minutes, we were almost there finishing it up and at 10.12 all of us ran to our classes leaving the exhibition open. 

Post class, I strolled to the  exhibition and I missed the paintings. It's funny that these are few works that I hold a lot of emotional value and was putting it out for exhibition. 

Archit, Sandra walked in with a little flower and congratulated me for the exhibition. Along with them, Ann joined and all of us sat near the exhibition, chatting random things while everyone got busy with the work. 

As people walked in, friends also managed to check out the art and spent some time to observe it and pointed out their favourites. 

Again, we rushed to attend class to learn Probability. After 2 hours of probability, I invited professor Remi to walk into the exhibition. He was inquisitive about the medium, paintings and colours. Glad to strike a conversation and share few words. Other friends joined and began to fill the post its to the question, "What is mystic river in your home language?"

Luana, Jyot, Arghadeep, Sanket, Pallavi, Harshita, Kushi and a few others joined the exhibition. Glad to share space with them. 

It's interesting that the empty space is filled by many people. A few are catching up on the stories on their towns, colleges and a lot more. Others are trying to interact with art. Others are silent but their presence speaks more than their words. 

Curious visitors

I was overwhelmed by putting out the art that's very close to me. What it is to be vulnerable? What it is to share a space with others? What it is to be there and let the world respond to your art?

Teary eyed me couldn't stop myself from crying and stayed grateful to be there and see the most loved ones being there and checking out my art. 

Soon after the hustle, after another lecture, Shivam walked into the exhibition and spent good time observing my art. There are two pieces, he could relate very much with his life and shared how he look at those pieces. 

I was touched by the way he responded to my art. Both of us walked into Pickwicks to join friends for Trivia night, also to celebrate the first day of the exhibition. 

I'm grateful for all the time and love people have shared it with me. 

Monday, October 23, 2023

Memories- Events

I'm grateful that there are a lot of days that reminds me of various memories at the drop of hat.  As I prepare for my next exhibition event, I could think of my first launch and exhibtion eve. 

On August 18 2015, I had my first book launch. Anil covered the whole event and gave a lot of memorable pictures. Whole college was cheering for me and supporting me in this endeavour. I could feel everyone's support as everything fell in place even though I was clueless till the last minute about a lot of things. Kittu from ED cell got in, Kittu Jr came up with cover, Charishma assisted in handling the whole event, Shashank was there for every small thing. Grateful for everyone. Lastly but not the least, all my friends, loved ones showed up at the event, making it houseful. Good old memories.  

So nice of the prof to read the excerpts and appreciate them.

Without their support, I wouldn't have pushed myself to check my potential

Dr.Kiran Mai- The one who took me under her wing taught me life lessons

Harry a.k.a Harimohan Paruvu

That's the first and last time I wore suit for any of my launches

The launch picture

This will remain my favorite picture. My first autograph on the day of event, I guess.

The cherry on the top was Harry's blog which still makes me relive the day through his words. Thanks a lot Harry for writing this piece.


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