Soliloquies- 30th Birthday

30th birthday. I'm very confident and positive that my special days turn out to be special for many reasons. Woke up to the messages and sweet notes by many friends. Harry wrote a letter sharing wishes and also thoughts on how one can put efforts and choose to be happy. I chose happiness over brooding and decided to put efforts to be happy. I headed to the lake for a cold lake dip as it seemed a refreshing good start for the day. 

I headed to the lake, enjoyed the cold lake dip under the cloudy weather, ate the birthday cake I bought for myself and caught up with mom and Dad over call. After a long walk, I headed to station and got some groceries and planned to head home. Lost in my own thoughts, I missed the station and ended up at a place where I wished to walk further and went to my secret place into the woods. I walked along when it was drizzling. After a long happy walk, caught up with Nikita over a call and other friends. I was reflecting on my 30th birthday and thought of major takeaways. 

Change is the constant: To resist the change is to resist the life. I realised that the more we embrace the change, the better and simple the life becomes. 

Do not expect a lot from people: To expect people to be the same is to expect yourself to not change. And to not change is to not embrace the life. I somehow kept thinking around change and flow. I strongly associate myself with water and flow. How does this birthday redefine me? I'm curious. 

I returned home to realise that I need to cook Biryani for the friends who were dropping by. On my way back home, I decided to gift myself flowers and walked into a flower store. "It's my birthday today and I would like to buy some flowers. Can you suggest any?" I shared with the store owner. After a heartfyl conversation and a few suggestions, I lef the store with bright red flowers in my hand. That's how I felt on my birthday. Bright and Red. 

Adhira, Epsa, Anjali decided to huddle up on thursday. Shruti wished to arrive early and walked with white rose flowers, Sanjna with a flower plant, Srishti with a sweet note and art puzzle, Claire dazzled by kheer and a cake, Krithi also joined, sharing heartful wishes. Tridisha arrived with a lemon cake justifying that Renny cooks a lot of lemon rice, he may like this. Very thoughtful and sweet of her. While Snigdha got on a call to listen to my big day, dinner with all these lovely souls was heartening. Missed catching up with Ann. Over conversations and heartful exchanges, all of us shared dinner. I cooked biryani for the first time in my life. Harry suggested to try a single out of comfort zone thing in my life. Cooking biryani seemed to be out of comfort zone and I failed but the guests were kind to me as it's my birthday.

Just before I was calling it a day, I read the news of A.R.Rahman's divorce news and began to learn that we're all perfect the way we are with our own imperfections. Hope they family walk through these tough times with support and grace.