Own's loss is a different loss to the kind of loss we have to see the loved one going through. Jai shared her thoughts, fears of losing Randy.
When a person is affected with cancer, his whole family is also affected. Jai and Randy consulted the psychologist to seek support during the tough phase. They were guided to deal with the children and how much they can share with the children about the disease.
Children understanding cancer would be tough. They were told everything but Jai shares her fears,
" The knowledge cannot shield us from the distress of telling our children that their father had cancer."
Talking about vulnerability, everyone goes through the phase of loss. Jai and Randy had their talk in selecting the coffins. The funeral wasn't for Randy but, for Jai.
Jai wrote, "Sometimes after the funeral, I realized how good it felt to have a good hard cry, to not be strong or have to worry about others. The funeral might have been the first time I felt such heart-wrenching emotions. It wouldn't be the last."
Jai's reflections for the hope are positive and supporting.
"I was learning not to look at today through the lens of yesterday which made the promise of tomorrow all the more magical."